Today marks 2 years. 2 years of questioning. 2 years of anxiety. 2 years of uncertainty. 2 years of grieving. 2 years of changes.
If you’ve been following my journey, then you know that I have had to climb several mountains to celebrate a Mother’s Day with my baby in my arms and before my eyes. But as I sit here and reflect on what my “first” Mother’s Day means to me, I can’t help but take myself back to last year, and the year before that and think of all the women in the world who are currently feeling those feelings that I once felt.
Packing your hospital bag for a labor and delivery experience can initially seem overwhelming and simply scary. All of those feelings are totally normal…at least they were for me. I promise you, if you don’t pack a bag for whatever reason, you will be just fine. However, if you try to be 10 steps ahead like me, there are some essential items I would recommend packing. I’ve compiled a list to take some of those scary and overwhelming feelings away from you as you prepare for your new arrival!
Baby K and I have hit another huge milestone this past week as we entered week 35 of pregnancy! This has been my goal since first experiencing my preterm labor contractions during week 30, so I am relieved to say we have made it this far. It definitely has not been very smooth, but here we are!
Last week, our family threw Baby K the most beautiful and perfect baby shower. I was politely dismissed from the planning process (haha!), which was initially difficult to accept being the control-freak that I am, but I was absolutely blown away walking into our shower. I am so excited to show y’all the pretty details!
As a little girl, I did all the girly things you could imagine: played Barbies, dress-up, had tea parties with my stuffed animals, and most days consisted of my best friend and I playing “house.” Well, naturally when you play those things, you choose names. You choose names for your baby dolls, your stuffed animals, your Barbies, and even yourself at times. I always had my go-to, favorite names that I would use over and over and just imagined that one day those names would be the names of my actual children. Boy, was I wrong.
As usual, Baby K and this pregnancy are keeping Kyle and I are on toes with no expectations. Our last appointment indicated that she is in the 80th percentile for her size and also really low..like, down there. We know she is healthy & happy in there while she grows. But just before I hit 31 weeks, we had another little surprise…
We have made it to 30 weeks! Sometimes I have to pinch myself to even believe it’s true. Venturing into the 3rd trimester has been fun and so many things have happened with the growth and development of Baby K (and my belly for that matter).
I always remembered my friends and family members talking about having to do their glucose test, but it was never a big deal. After all the testing we have been through, I really didn’t think much of this test, but wanted to make sure I followed all the rules to get it done and over with. The only thing I had in the back of my mind was how much sugar I actually consume in my day, especially during this pregnancy. Let’s just say this little girl is going to be extra sweet 😉
As much as I preach about staying positive and hopeful, well…because I truly believe that’s what makes difficult circumstances more manageable, I don’t want y’all to think that I am always bubbly, positive, and hopeful. It’s just not reality. I’ve had some pretty dark moments through all of the waiting and bad news we kept getting from doctors and test results prior to our amnio and echo.