It’s unnatural to think bad things will happen to you, right? I always looked around at my family and friends who have had smooth, healthy pregnancies and babies (even unplanned), and I never once had a slight fear that my journey wouldn’t be as easy as theirs. Enduring pregnancy loss is extremely damaging; it’s damaging physically, emotionally, and mentally. However, there is one thing that this experience didn’t damage, but only strengthened.
Month: December 2017
If At First You Don’t Succeed…
At this moment, it has been a little over 5 months since my pregnancy loss. I was given a 6 month prescription to my birth control and just recently picked up my last month supply. Naturally, my mind has been filled with thoughts about trying again. What does that even mean? Where do I even start? How do I even feel about it?
“It’s The Most Wonderful Time of the Year”
I am a HUGE holiday-season fan. I love everything about Thanksgiving and Christmas: the food, the family, the movies, the decor, the shopping, and just the spirit! It’s always the happiest 2 months of the year for me. This year, however, has been a little different…a little off.
Obsession Confession: Throw Blankets
I can’t possibly be the only person who has an obsession with throw blankets, right? I mean, I can’t feel relaxed and cozy while sitting on the couch without a throw blanket, especially during the fall and winter months here in Illinois. It’s just not natural. Maybe it’s a “midwest suburban” thing? I don’t know, but I love it and I will continue to embrace this obsession-as will my dog! Who’s with me?!
The Internal Struggle Post-Pregnancy Loss
Have you ever felt like you have a target or a “kick me” sign attached to you? I’ve never felt more different or targeted in my life than after having been through a pregnancy loss. You don’t have to tell me that I’m similar to so many other women; you don’t have to tell me that I’m NOT being targeted, because I know this. I am in my head- those thoughts drive my true feelings and the only thing I can do is feel my own feelings, you know? In order for me to “help” the situation, I just have to go through the motions and deal with it as it comes. That’s my exact problem, though, dealing with it when it comes.