It’s funny how life throws you some unique (or maybe not so unique) opportunities to change your perspective, force you to grow in your mindset, and even become more open-minded to things you never thought possible. When I say “it’s funny,” I really mean “it’s mind blowing.” Think about the last time you heard, watched, or did something that made your jaw drop. It’s because you were taken aback in one way or another, right?
Recently, I have been listening and thinking differently, maybe more optimistically…I’m not sure, but things people have said and experiences I have been placed into have really spoken to me on a new level. Honestly, I am loving it! It is keeping my mind going and pushing me to look at life with a new perspective.
Message 1: GOD HAS A PLAN AND PATH FOR EVERYONE
Whether you are into religion/believe in God or not, you may find meaning in this message as well.
The more I sit and think about it, the more I nod my head in agreement. My pregnancy loss and TTC journey has been in my deck of cards for my entire lifetime. Why? Well, that’s a question we are usually told not to ask when it comes to stuff like this, but it’s only natural, right? So I think this was in my plan and on my path for a variety of reasons, but mainly to grow as a person; to grow stronger, to become more stable, to learn new life lessons, and to develop deeper relationships. This experience has been horrific, but it has also been a blessing. I have learned so much about my body, I developed more coping skills related to every emotion you could think of, I have grown in my relationship with my husband, family, and friends, and I have confirmed my values, morals, and dreams in life. I don’t know where my path is headed or what my plan entails, but I do know that looking at everything on my path as a blessing and trying to figure out how it’s going to better me in the long run is really what makes the bad things in life more tolerable. Trust in your unknown path, your unknown plan, and (as an old friend of mine used to say) accentuate the positive.
Message 2: BE HOPEFUL IN THE DARKNESS, AS THERE WILL SOON BE LIGHT
This message came from a yoga class I took a couple weeks ago. I walked into the room and the lights were off, candles were lit, and soft music was playing. The yoga instructor began talking about how dark it gets so early and how we should look at that in a more positive way. We know that this early darkness only lasts for a little while and it soons becomes light again.
After she said this, I felt as though I had an out-of-body experience. I’ve had hundreds of dark moments just in these past 7 months. But there has always been light close behind. At the time, the light seemed so beyond reach, but I made it. Every. Time. There are so many battles we will face in life, but there will always be light at the end; happiness WILL come. I WILL become a mom because I know that is my light at the end of this larger darkness hanging overhead. I am slowly moving one dark cloud away at a time to find this light of mine, and I know I have to be close.
Message 3: WORTH THE WAIT
The two week wait I talked about in my previous post (click HERE to read it), or waiting to try again (which I just experienced for 6 months), or waiting to meet your baby (which will hopefully happen for me soon), or even waiting for anything you want so badly is said to be “worth the wait.” I really have started to believe in this message more and more, especially since I just heard it at church last week (the day after my “waiting” post!!! I think God reads my blog…but seriously).
We aren’t put in these “waiting” situations for no reason. It’s about the timing in your plan and on your path. We don’t always get to choose that timing, unfortunately. I do believe that this effort I have put into waiting will make my experience of being a mom so worth it. I can only hope and pray that it makes me more grateful, more thoughtful, more caring, more loving, and more equipped than I would have been before. I hope that it makes me appreciate the small things about being pregnant, giving birth, and being a mom. I know that when my time comes and my waiting is over (for this experience), it will be totally worth it!
I hope you can find peace and perspective within these messages that really spoke to me. I’d love to hear your perspective, or other messages that spoke to you, so feel free to share. Let life speak to you differently and try to keep an open, optimistic mind (after, of course, you have your well-deserved freak-out moment 😉 ).