by AngieTTC Journey | - January 20, 2018

The Waiting Game

I truly have never met a soul that enjoys waiting. It’s only human nature to want your needs (or wants) to be met immediately; to be met the exact moment you want them. However, this game we all embark in, called life, is filled with waiting. Being forced to wait is a good thing for us, though. It keeps us grounded, builds our patience, and encourages us to plant our feet a little more…at least I think. Whether your waiting game is based on your delivery man, a Black Friday deal, an offer on a new house, or within a TTC journey, it brings forward the potential for so many emotions.

It’s January! If y’all have been following my blog, you know why January is an exciting (yet scary) month for me- we get to begin TTC again. It’s been 6 months since my ectopic pregnancy and surgery, and 5 ½ months since my last Methotrexate injection. With that out of my system, and plenty of time for my body to recover, we are face-to-face with another TTC journey.

According to my Ava bracelet and app, I was suppose to ovulate sometime within the last 2 weeks. I haven’t been stressing about it whatsoever. I have only been wearing my Ava bracelet at night and checking out that data every morning, but nothing more. I didn’t use ovulation sticks, I didn’t track any extra data, I haven’t paid close attention to signs my body might be giving me, and I stuck to my word on NOT “Google-ing” anything. According to my Ava bracelet, my stress level is at an all-time LOW! Honestly, I’m extremely proud of myself. My mind hasn’t been obsessing over it at all!

Don’t get me wrong- it hasn’t been easy. I have been using my husband and some girlfriends as an outlet recently and I’m confident that has helped my stress level.

But now we wait.

And while we wait, my mind takes any open moment to think about everything pregnancy related. From wondering how to avoid the disappointment of finding out I’m not pregnant again to wondering when and how I should confirm a pregnancy if I have a missed period. Seriously, my mind is crazy.

I got super helpful advice about trying again from a friend that has been in a situation similar to mine. She told me to make sure I get a good handle on the things I CAN control and to remind myself that everything else will happen on their own. She also explained how important it is to “distract the heck” out of yourself during this wait time. (That’s my goal this weekend, which is why I am heading to Home Depot to purchase paint for our bedroom. Just a little home-improvement distraction for the win!) The best thing she said was “know that even if you tell yourself that you have low expectations, it will still hurt if you get a negative [pregnancy test].” How true is that? Can you ever actually prepare yourself for deep disappointment? Probably not.

With that said, I am marching forward with positivity, hope, & lots of distractions (i.e. home improvement projects, new If you have been in this position before, please share your advice- what helped you through this “waiting game?” Or, if you’re approaching this situation along with me, just hold on tight! We can do this!